Well shit

 I texted Brandon, but turns out it wasn’t Brandon that I texted. I thought you guys were just ghosting next, lol.

Here’s my Facebook link.

https://www.facebook.com/tim.smith.94801

The Facebooks..

 We got the facebooks, just for you... now what is your FB, MrTCS?

 

Chicken Milk Bomb..

I had forgotten the chicken business. Yes! I wonder how long it took to figure that out?

Awesome to be back and hear from everyone. I'm not on any social stuff really. The only thing I use is Messenger. Brandon has my # now, so if we can figure that out...

So many chitlins runnin' around. You guys have been busy.

It’s so nice...

It’s so nice to see some actual back and forth conversation on here. Been a post with a year break for too long. Sorry to hear about your mom Jared. 

Working from home isn’t too bad, kids drive me crazy sometimes but for the most part they let me work. I have two boys, 7 & 5. About to hit 39 myself in a little over a week. 

I’m missed you guys and all the good times we had and I’m definitely down for talking outside of this channel. Might be easier to keep in touch on a regular basis. I’ll shoot you a text tomorrow Brandon, maybe we can start up a three way text too. I’m guessing you all still don’t have those fancy social site accounts. I searched for both of you a few times over the years but never had any luck. I’m also in New Albany now, less than 10 minutes from where you are Brandon. 

When all this rona is over we need to meet halfway, maybe kick a hole in a hotel room wall and toss some chicken in the vent. 

Keeps on tickin'..

We'll make it happen. It'll be one of those Sandler movies where all the old cats get back together.

Marglamesh, yes! I still owe him money for that rental car.

I shot you a text.

Time....

I been checkin this blog daily for like a year waitin on one of yall to say anything. Jared I hope you are doing well down there, sorry about your mom. Seems that kid of yours is doing alright tho! Tim, I somehow ended up living next to Marglemesh, if you ever want to say hi, you could.   I truly miss you guys and the times we shared. I would love to someday hang out again if thats ever possible. I been steady checkin this bitch for like 15 years no, seems crazy its been that long.....Time?..??...   

Eight one two

two zero seven

Six three four three

Shoot this number a text or sumthin if yall want ????

Bunker Fuckin D..

I love you guys too.

Life sounds pretty rad, if estrogenic for you B. That must be an adventure. Tell Jordan I says what's up. Been so long.

Just watched Forgetting Sarah Marshall, swinging a big, gay dong for that movie. Might have to watch it again.

HOLY SHIT !!

Thats the most personal thing you ever said. It only took like 15 years. Hahah.

Life Update:

I am a Lieutenant for Louisville Metro Corrections. I am mildly in charge of the largest jail in Kentucky hahahah. Work is a covid warzone everyday. Pretty sure I had that shit already. Three kids all girls all TALL as fuck like the giraffe I married. Doing good in New Albany. Straight chillin still playin dem guitars n shit. Still hangin with Jordan all the time. Turned 39 last week. Love you guys Bunker D 4 Life

Lost..

Good to hear back from you man, and good to hear you can work from home during this. Gettin' stir crazy at all? How is that area dealing with the pandemic, in general? TX is, or was, mostly lawless about it, especially in the smaller towns.

First off, I want to apologize for being so sporadic and lazy about keeping in touch.

It took being in a really dark place for a while to get me to reach out. I think about it often, but for whatever reason, I fail to post or get in contact. I'll be ticking forty in a few months. I got laid off, which I tried to pretend wasn't too big a deal. I also recently let a good woman slip away.

We were together for five years. Trying to let go of her and move forward has been the hardest part of it all. I haven't had anyone to talk to about it, so I ended up texting her number for days, selfishly looking for support. I didn't think she would respond, but she did, and it set me back pretty badly. I think I'm dealing with much of the past trauma from the relationship I had when I was there, in Louisville. I know I didn't talk about it much. But moving here, back then, never really gave me a chance to deal with it, and I kinda shut down for years. I became addicted to video games, working random jobs on and off, and living with my parents. With some tough support from my Dad I started to turn things around, and this beautiful young woman was given to me. Only, it was about a decade too late and I made a huge mess of it. Having never really dealt with that trauma from the past, or really even a breakup, among other things, I sabotaged it all and pushed her away, wasting her time and youth. I've been struggling. Shame, guilt, loss.

In the past I would have been quick to say something like: "get up and move on", without any context. I realize I had no idea what I was talking about most of the time.

I'm working through it, as best I can. Typing this actually helps. I can't sleep, so I'm up watching Youtube videos, shedding tears over my own mistakes.

As far as other stuff goes, my daughter is 19 now and in an honors program in college. I'm incredibly proud of who she has become. Thanks to my Dad's support, she's doing well. My mom died some years back, cancer. I was too depressed myself to help as much as I should have, or just be supportive. I don't talk with my father enough, but never really have. He remarried a Russian woman, and we hit it off really well. /sarcasm

I hope everyone there is doing well, and I hope your families are going strong.